‘A lass I used to know in the sauna had told me about Create Women’s Project and how they had helped her. I remember thinking at the time that they sounded different, I kept the leaflet she gave me, but it wasn’t until 9 months later that I plucked up the courage to actually lift up the phone to get in touch, and I’m so glad I did.’
I felt comfortable talking with Jules almost immediately, and that first call I made lasted over an hour. I hadn’t planned to but I found myself just talk talk talking nonstop about all sorts of things that I was really struggling to come to terms with. It was the first time in my life that I had been able to do that, and even after that first chat I felt better.
That was over a year ago, and I have been involved in the project ever since, god knows what I would be like it if wasn’t for their support. They have literally been a lifeline. You’ve no idea what a relief it is to be able to talk to someone who actually understands what it’s like to be involved in prostitution, and what you’re going through as a consequence.
I was a mess back then, I was drinking myself into oblivion and I wasn’t coping with anything. My rent wasn’t getting paid, in fact I wasn’t paying any of my bills I just couldn’t face anything, I just wanted to block everything out, I felt worthless. I just wanted everything to end, I wanted to end.
I had actually been given notice of eviction from my flat, and Create provided really great support so that didn’t happen, and the financial mess I was in was sorted with their help.
I’m amazed at how different I feel now, and how much I’ve changed as a person in the last year, and that is down to Jules and Create, she wouldn’t say that though hahaha, she would say that it’s been all my doing, but I know without the support I’ve had, I wouldn’t be where I am now.
Don’t get me wrong, I still have my struggles, and believe me they’re big fucking struggles but I’m more confident now, I have more self-worth, I know I have something worthwhile to contribute and Jules has had me involved in all sorts of things that I never thought I was capable of. I have done a fair bit of volunteering with the project also, it’s been great and I’m so grateful. Jules is going to get a rid neck when she listens to this hahahaha.’